I let you down.
I’m so sorry. I got gaslit, redirected, and manipulated by a white lady who says shit like “I don’t understand” and “It’s a difference of opinion, and I don’t see why we have the pressure to make a statement.”
Someone else said it better than me, “Because this is a civil rights movement.”
And then there was this epic racial attack on you, and Black midwives I love, and this same white woman was like, “Well, it’s a difference of opinion.”
Fucking fuck. I wanted to blink her out of existence with my telekineses.
So I asked, “Why was the ‘opinion’ of a white woman more important?”
I’m so sorry. I got gaslit, redirected, and manipulated by a white lady who says shit like “I don’t understand” and “It’s a difference of opinion, and I don’t see why we have the pressure to make a statement.”
Someone else said it better than me, “Because this is a civil rights movement.”
And then there was this epic racial attack on you, and Black midwives I love, and this same white woman was like, “Well, it’s a difference of opinion.”
Fucking fuck. I wanted to blink her out of existence with my telekineses.
So I asked, “Why was the ‘opinion’ of a white woman more important?”
More important than yours, Mama Afua’s, and DeShaun’s.
I got no reply. We already know the answer.
I’m going to keep agitating on the inside.
You don’t have to come back to this organization. It is harming you.
I asked myself, am I harming you by staying in in?
Am I being an ally by staying in a racist org and agitating so hard that they will either kick me out or changes will be made? I’m not giving up.
I don’t know the answers.
I’m gonna keep showing up.
I love you.
Rowan
